I need a few signarures to go on hrt and Im even in the systems of all of those places, which is hard enough. One of the places wants a note from my therapist before I get their signature and my therapist is just stalling for no reason. She said she was gonna sign my papers, and I asked her about it and she just said to eait a fee months for no reason?????? Why? There is no fucking reason for that. I'm going to fight her next week because she has no right to deny me hrt for no reason. I dont care if she is friendly about it, I dont care if she tries to steer away, I will be dedicating my session to getting hrt.
Ive been in a debate club, Ive argued on reddit a lot, I fucking had a philosophytube phase, I feel ready. Im just so fucking done with fighting everyone around me
Relevant: DIY HRT is really hard to access for transmasc people. I am transfem, but this is often overlooked and deserves attention.

This is gonna be like the dumb questions I see in the renovation subreddits, except now I'm the dumb question in an FPV subreddit.
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I'm practicing with a DJI controller 2 in Liftoff, and I've calibrated my controller (numerous times) but when I take off, the drone just keeps going up into the sky without any input, and with input, I can't bring it back down. It's as if the throttle calibration is too positive. I went into the manual settings and dialed it down some arbitrary amount and now it works how I imagine it should where down stick makes my drone land and up stick full sends it. IDK I guess my question is...is that right? Like what should the drone do if I'm 20m in the air and putting zero input into the throttle? I don't even know what to search on youtube to answer my question.

Intro

Hello 👋🏻, me again. As you can probably tell by now, I post here a lot trying to match with someone. I'm not gonna waste too much of your time as my last post I created on this subreddit around 2 weeks ago was too long and was probably more than most of you were willing to read, so I'm gonna change things up and try to be brief while putting the effort in. I'm gonna be completely honest throughout. So, where to begin?
As the title states, I'm looking for a long-term relationship and genuine relationship. I'm talking real, amazing, happy, and romantic love where we can make memories, both of us putting in the effort to make the relationship and bond work, communicate frequently, trust and respect each other well, stay loyal and faithful towards one another and behind each others back, be honest with each other, always have each others back no matter what the situation is, make each other feel good, etcetera, etcetera. That ray of sunshine in my life would do me some good y'know? Having something to fight for, being the happiest I've ever felt, less stressful and painful days both mentally and physically, peaceful nights, a greater sense of purpose to my life, etc, after spending a rough few years in the single life. You cannot go wrong with that special someone in your life. However, I do understand that relationships need time to form and grow in a healthy and positive way, so maybe we could get to know each other first and see where things lead before taking things to the next step?
Anyway, that's my version of a loving and genuine long-term relationship in words. Relationships are so hard to come by these days istg, more and more people get their hearts broken every single year to the point where others know about it and then can't see the point of being in a relationship thanks to fear of the same thing happening to them, or something else happening, it's crazy... But I can assure you that I'm not like all the other heartless individuals out there, I'm respectful and trust worthy ✨. I consider myself to be a friendly and socially confident introvert, I'm good with people irl, but often keep to myself from others (apart from my family). But once time passes and I spend enough time with then, my confidence will kick in and I will be quite a confident and comfortable sort around them :)
Just a little fun fact about me, my zodiac sign is Cancer ♋🦀 for those of you who are interested and if that matters to you at all.
I promised to be brief and not take too much of your time so I'm just gonna get to the basics and write a few of my hobbies and more about myself now.

I'm an indoor type of person but occasionally, I like spending time in the great outdoors too:

I like watching TV shows like Doctor Who, The Simpsons and Hollyoaks, and binging on a ton of movies. I like listening to music and gaming on PC games such as GTA, Red Dead, and Minecraft. The outdoor activities I like doing are spending my days out in places in the UK like Scarborough, Blackpool, Hornsea and Withernsea. I'm also interested in Photography, taking stunning photos to store and save for later. Playing different sports such as Badminton, Bowling, Cricket, Dodgeball, Tennis and Volleyball on the beach are things I really enjoy, but haven't played them recently thanks to a lack of others playing them with me. I like gardening and working with plants. I occasionally like doing artistic activities like card making, paper crafting, drawing and painting. & I also like to read from time to time.

Physical Appearance

My appearance is quite normal, I'm 5'8 in height, I've got quite the decent body shape, I've got a small amount of facial hair, an average to slightly above average face (pics can be exchanged if you're interested in knowing what I look like), and I'm also healthy with no health conditions or concerns.
I also have a balanced diet as I go grocery shopping at least once a week. I shower 7 days a week and I brush 😬 everyday too.

You

I haven't got many preferences in a woman tbh. Just as long as you live in the UK, or at least in different countries that are close to the UK like Norway, Ireland, Sweden, Belgium, Denmark, France, or perhaps even The Netherlands, since all have shorter time-zone differences to the ones in the UK which will make it so much easier to chat at similar times (but you can message me wherever you are on the globe), and you don't smoke or do drugs. My age limit is between 18-23, but people that are past that age range can also message me. Come as you are, no sugar coating, be real, be genuine. 🚫No NSFW content please🚫, that's all I ask. Say Hi, send me a picture of your pets if you have any and tell me where you're from.

Outro

Not too shabby for a shorter post? I did have a lot more I wanted to write here but I feel like that would've been too much for most people to want to read, but I can express the rest to you in private if you're interested, and if you're facinated in this post enough to contact me.
Thanks so much for taking the time out of your day to read this post.
See you on the other side? 🙏🏻👋🏻

SIDE NOTE:

[If you wish to contact me after reading this post, you can message me and introduce yourself on here first if you'd like, but afterwards I would much rather prefer to chat on discord or Facebook messenger, if you don't mind, since the Reddit chat is so glitchy and slow, & doesn't send each other's messages on time, or not at all. It has happened every time I go in conversations with people. -_- I'm tired of this app ruining them by not sending our messages to one another most of the time. If you message me and I send a message back which is completely unrelated to it, that's the app not sending me your messages, or vice versa. If we message elsewhere it would be so much easier to chat without having to worry about this problem interfering in our dialogue.
This has been an ongoing issue ever since I installed the app.]

Started playing again after the next gen update. Today i easily beat a level 20 leshen at level 3. Im playing on death march and i remember from my last playthorugh (some 4 or 5 years ago) higher level enemies were really hard to kill mostly because they took very little damage. But now it seems a bit too easy. Maybe its just me or has the difficulty been changed?

After the incident, you know. Back when i had a temper tantrum and broke all that shit. With a table leg that fell off the table when i was .. idk, i had a pretty big fit over something. Looking back, totally fucking justified.
Anyone in that position would have had the same kind of fit, but i don’t think that’s true. I think anyone else in the same position would have flat killed your ass over that. Truth be told.
Why are butterflies good and moths bad, again. I mean, moths are just nighttime butterflies.
And, they love clothes. That’s why they eat so much. Just fat butterflies that only come out at night. And, spend the day laying up in the closet eating holes in clothes. What’s not to love
They make some kinda silk cocoon, it’s for their babies. So, like, you know. Better than butterflies, they make silk like spiders. So, that’s why i believe moths to be superior to butterflies in every way.
So, you know. I had to act right and be supervised, but idk what the fuck that’s supposed to mean every fucking one of you were right there when i did it, sat there mouths agape watching, so. Like, what you gonna do, supervisor.
They kept going on about it, heather needs supervision, like, saying in the bless your heart kinda way, taunting me. I was mad as hell, and they’re still very much in the wrong regardless of how i acted about it.
Are you fucking kidding me. Nah, still fucking mad. Still mad over it. I’m going to die mad
Oh, it burns me the fuck up inside. I mean, really. You know, and, then, and, then, and, then, and, then. You know. Fuck every fucking one of you
So, i mean. Yeah, how did you expect me to feel about that. Happy for you.
A new character was introduced. We’re going to call him, “thinks he’s ron jeremy” - mustache for short. I think it’s going to be a hot one this year. Real hot. I think we’ll set the record high of all time for this area.
Both in number of days above 100 in a row and all time highest temp.
I couldn’t stand them or having them around after that. I was so fucking mad, and they were so god damn condesending to me. You know, did that and then acted like it wasn’t even a big deal, you know.
And, that ain’t even the only time. That’s just the only time they got caught. They still do that, you know. But, now everyone’s in on it, so … you know, they don’t tell cause they’re getting paid
Loyalty costs, you see
And, you’re a cheap fucking bastard.
…
Oh, they couldn’t finnnnddd me.
They were claiming that they did not know where i was while i was dating hueser. But, no one knows where she is, ran off, i guess. She’s apt to do that.
So, then, you see, i needed supervision. So, whenever i was there he had to be there to make sure i didn’t get out of line, and you know. Just get on my fucking nerves, that’s all they were there to do. Piss me off.
He said i brought out the worst in him, but the truth is i saw him for who the fuck he was and wouldn’t pretend otherwise.
I realized that everything i’d seen before was just a facade. Personality .. everything, just fake. All fucking fake. Probably not the crying on the floor. That was probably real. But, the rest of it, just fake, fake, fake, fake, mother fucking fake
And, you know. When they knew they had me, there wasn’t no more pretending with me and he was just himself, and maybe he was always that way, but i started seeing it in a different light.
Yeah, i guess he was, idk. Like, a racist fucking prick who hated women, well, not that he hates them, he disregards them. Like, he thinks, like, really fucking thinks that women are only just good for sex or selling.
Like, that’s what he says. So, he’s just so fucking gross to me. All that shit. Who he really is.
And, i mean, if he had such a change of heart from who he used to be and the steps work if you work them …
Where the fuck were you when you got to number 6, or is it 8. Cause i only know drunk ever made amends, and it ain’t you.
Went around to everyone he knew and apologized for his behavior while he was a drunk. And, then never did that again. Pounded his fist on the table and told his wife he’d had enough of her shit, and so she left. He was drunk and being an asshole.
Just arguing over nothing and getting worked up, and you know. Cause he was drunk. When his wife left him, he quit drinking. And, stayed not drinking and agreed to go to church and his wife came home, that went on for over a year. She stayed gone for over a year.
Anyway, that’s the only person who i’ve ever know to make amends. You know, like they say in your good book
Yes, the ex did figure out the secret .. everyone made jokes about it, you know. How he keeps her high like it’s his job. Just weed. I don’t even drink that much anymore. It’s just, you know …
Doesn’t make me interested in doing meth or smoking crack, you know. And, you say that shit to me, welll, she’s on drugs. Mr Fucking Coke Head said i was on drugs.
And, so, you know, pushed me out. Said i wasn’t qualified and that i cost the company money just being in the building. Then, when people asked where i was, or to talk to me, they’d just be like, well, heather hardly has time for us now
And, act all offended, like i just left them in the lurch. But, that wasn’t what happened, they fired me, but then said i just stopped showing up, like, no called - no showed. But, no. they fired me.
I have no call - no showed job before, no fucking lie. Kinda my thing. Lol, no. it depends. Like, you know. If my employer has treated me well, but i just need to do something else, i’ll work out a notice. But, you know…
So, fucking weird, i just had a guest come up and ask for that corner room. The old owner here used to rent it out, you know. To guests at a higher than normal room rate. The manager’s apt. Where that guy killed himself, the ghost.
The ghost in my office. That’s just what happened. I mean, you know. There’s a record of all that happening, so you know. Ran across that in learning my history of the building and then i recalled the gossip about it as i worked there at the time.
It’s weird that she asked for. Just some woman, since she asked for, she had to know it’s here. I told her i don’t have any rooms avail. And, i don’t.
Do y’all ever get bored. I’m pretty bored.
But, he was real racist and shit and i was trying to get rid of him, you know. I didn’t want any association with him, you know. He wasn’t someone i wanted to know and that decision wasn’t made by me, but of circumstance since he’d been in my life for so long
Well, this is a heavily censored document, i had to proofread and delete all the good stuff in an effort to not get sued. lol

Intro

Hello 👋🏻, me again. As you can probably tell by now, I post here a lot trying to match with someone. I'm not gonna waste too much of your time as my last post I created on this subreddit around 2 weeks ago was too long and was probably more than most of you were willing to read, so I'm gonna change things up and try to be brief while putting the effort in. I'm gonna be completely honest throughout. So, where to begin?
As the title states, I'm looking for a long-term relationship and genuine relationship. I'm talking real, amazing, happy, and romantic love where we can make memories, both of us putting in the effort to make the relationship and bond work, communicate frequently, trust and respect each other well, stay loyal and faithful towards one another and behind each others back, be honest with each other, always have each others back no matter what the situation is, make each other feel good, etcetera, etcetera. That ray of sunshine in my life would do me some good y'know? Having something to fight for, being the happiest I've ever felt, less stressful and painful days both mentally and physically, peaceful nights, a greater sense of purpose to my life, etc, after spending a rough few years in the single life. You cannot go wrong with that special someone in your life. However, I do understand that relationships need time to form and grow in a healthy and positive way, so maybe we could get to know each other first and see where things lead before taking things to the next step?
Anyway, that's my version of a loving and genuine long-term relationship in words. Relationships are so hard to come by these days istg, more and more people get their hearts broken every single year to the point where others know about it and then can't see the point of being in a relationship thanks to fear of the same thing happening to them, or something else happening, it's crazy... But I can assure you that I'm not like all the other heartless individuals out there, I'm respectful and trust worthy ✨. I consider myself to be a friendly and socially confident introvert, I'm good with people irl, but often keep to myself from others (apart from my family). But once time passes and I spend enough time with then, my confidence will kick in and I will be quite a confident and comfortable sort around them :)
Just a little fun fact about me, my zodiac sign is Cancer ♋🦀 for those of you who are interested and if that matters to you at all.
I promised to be brief and not take too much of your time so I'm just gonna get to the basics and write a few of my hobbies and more about myself now.

I'm an indoor type of person but occasionally, I like spending time in the great outdoors too:

I like watching TV shows like Doctor Who, The Simpsons and Hollyoaks, and binging on a ton of movies. I like listening to music and gaming on PC games such as GTA, Red Dead, and Minecraft. The outdoor activities I like doing are spending my days out in places in the UK like Scarborough, Blackpool, Hornsea and Withernsea. I'm also interested in Photography, taking stunning photos to store and save for later. Playing different sports such as Badminton, Bowling, Cricket, Dodgeball, Tennis and Volleyball on the beach are things I really enjoy, but haven't played them recently thanks to a lack of others playing them with me. I like gardening and working with plants. I occasionally like doing artistic activities like card making, paper crafting, drawing and painting. & I also like to read from time to time.

Physical Appearance

My appearance is quite normal, I'm 5'8 in height, I've got quite the decent body shape, I've got a small amount of facial hair, an average to slightly above average face (pics can be exchanged if you're interested in knowing what I look like), and I'm also healthy with no health conditions or concerns.
I also have a balanced diet as I go grocery shopping at least once a week. I shower 7 days a week and I brush 😬 everyday too.
£££ ain't a problem as I receive it once every month in the 🏦, but I don't get much, just enough for rent and care charge to keep the roof over my head, & groceries. However, there's been quite a few occasions where people online have asked me to buy them gift cards / vouchers, or just money in general either on cashapp, PayPal or Play Store, literally 1 to 2 days in getting to know them. Those types of people have been immediately blocked. -.-
🔴STAY SAFE WITH YOUR MONEY ONLINE FOLKS🔴

You

I haven't got many preferences in a woman tbh. Just as long as you live in the UK, or at least in different countries that are close to the UK like Norway, Ireland, Sweden, Belgium, Denmark, France, or perhaps even The Netherlands, since all have shorter time-zone differences to the ones in the UK which will make it so much easier to chat at similar times (but you can message me wherever you are on the globe), and you don't smoke or do drugs. My age limit is between 18-23, but people that are past that age range can also message me. Come as you are, no sugar coating, be real, be genuine. 🚫No NSFW content please🚫, that's all I ask. Say Hi, send me a picture of your pets if you have any and tell me where you're from.

Outro

Not too shabby for a shorter post? I did have a lot more I wanted to write here but I feel like that would've been too much for most people to want to read, but I can express the rest to you in private if you're interested, and if you're facinated in this post enough to contact me.
Thanks so much for taking the time out of your day to read this post.
See you on the other side? 🙏🏻👋🏻

SIDE NOTE:

[If you wish to contact me after reading this post, you can message me and introduce yourself on here first if you'd like, but afterwards I would much rather prefer to chat on discord or Facebook messenger, if you don't mind, since the Reddit chat is so glitchy and slow, & doesn't send each other's messages on time, or not at all. It has happened every time I go in conversations with people. -_- I'm tired of this app ruining them by not sending our messages to one another most of the time. If you message me and I send a message back which is completely unrelated to it, that's the app not sending me your messages, or vice versa. If we message elsewhere it would be so much easier to chat without having to worry about this problem interfering in our dialogue.
This has been an ongoing issue ever since I installed the app.]
All my social media links are in my bio on my profile if you're interested.

i’m so hurt and i have been since i can remember. it never really got better, there were periods of my life where i felt like i could maybe live an okay life but the last three to four years took everything that was left of my joy and happiness. i dropped out of school bc of mental health and heavy weed addiction made it so much worse. i was abused and then left by someone i love with my whole heart. i had a breakdown when that happened and behaved horribly. that relationship and person meant the world to me. they still do. i don’t mean much if anything to them now. after that breakup i had the worst year of my life just smoking weed and crying and sleeping and being lonely all day. i tried to manage making some art, poetry or music or drawing but i’m shit at all of those things and everything i somehow do make is completely genuinely shit. the few people i do/did interact with aren’t fulfilling friendships to me even tho i care about them. after that horrible worst year of my life i met someone new and i loved him, very differently from the people before but it was so good. he means the world to me. he is kind and gentle and patient and funny and so much more. and i treated him like shit bc of my fucking insanity. he left me in december and last month we talked again for two weeks and he left me again about six weeks ago, for good. i’m just such a fuckup i don’t and i never will contribute anything worthwhile to society. i hurt and scare the people i love. i’ve been losing hope of ever really getting better and losing my last relationship because of my own flaws kills the last bit of joy, hope and happiness i had left in me. i miss him so much. i miss all of them so much, all the people i’ve loved and who hurt me and abused me but i still miss them so much. and he was the first person who treated me with respect and real love and now he’s gone and blocked me everywhere. just like everyone i’ve ever gotten close to or loved. i can’t even begin to explain all the shit in my life every single aspect of it is just living in hell every day. everything hurts, i don’t enjoy anything, i miss people and places and the past all day and think about how fucked up i am and how i’ll never be happy and how i’ll die alone and how i just want the pain to stop. for many years now the only reason i’m still here has been that i’m too scared of surviving or feeling pain which is pathetic. i miss my friends. i miss my partners. i miss my mum and my family and myself. i wish i could just leave. it’s been my biggest wish since i can remember. when i was a child i prayed to god that i would die. i think about it so much. it’s been getting worse these last few years. i just want the pain to stop. i’m so lonely and heartbroken.

so i’ve got an ovarian cyst the size of an egg 😁 and i’m in the hospital rn, mum says they’ll most likely want to operate as soon as they can. i’ve never had surgery, i am very scared. i’m scared of being put under anaesthetic, im scared of having a nightmare when i’m under, im scared of waking up during the surgery, im scared of waking up and my mum not being there, im scared of having to stay overnight without my mum. i am very very scared and anxious

3/26/23
gonna make a longer post soon, but i have to post something now.. if you aren’t interested in the story atm pls scroll down to “STORY END”, where i am asking for some assistance with something and sharing thoughts and feelings
i just woke up, and yesterday i had one of the most amazing simping experiences i’ve ever had at one of my local malls. i walked up to two girls that were working at this little cologne and perfume shop, girl 1 was this asian american girl, with this amazing petite but still hourglass body, forget what she was wearing on top, but she had leggings on which were of course skin tight and showed off the really incredible shape of her bottom half, amazing butt, and legs. she had this absolutely beautiful face, with this beautiful smile that absolutely killed me. this other girl was also of foreign decent, forgive me but i’m not sure what the word for it would be. she had brown skin, indian or something, i also forget what this girl had on top, but she also had an amazing body, (same type as girl one) and was wearing skin tight black jeans that showed off that she also had an incredible lower half. amazing ass, god i’m going crazy just thinking about them. this girls face wasn’t as “conventionally” attractive as the first, but i personally genuinely found her beautiful, and she certainly wasn’t conventionally UNattractive. anyway, i’m going to skip most of the conversation me and these two girls had for now, but at some point during it i couldn’t help myself and i just said to girl one..
me: “would you want me to like, give you money for free?”
girl one: (laughs, smiling at me) “like, as a tip?”
me: i laughed back a little and said “sure” with a smile
i took out my wallet and took out the little cash i had on me, about 7 dollars in singles. i put it on the counter which was between us, and said “this is all i have on me right now, if you want you too could split this?” we have some more conversation and at first they are trying to convince me a little bit to maybe spend my money on myself, but it didn’t take long before they were totally down with me giving it to them. finally girl one grabs the cash that was on the counter, in this absolutely adorable way that i’m not sure if i can describe with words. she did it in this fashion that gave off a feeling of bratty, inconsiderate, ungrateful.. like, after we had the discussion and i had convinced her it was OK for her to take it, she no longer felt nearly as bad about it and kind of grabbed it really quickly and gave off this high pitched “yay!” or “well, okay!”, it was something like that.
anyway, i asked for their instagrams and they both gave me theirs, to which i told them that i would def hit both of them up and asked girl one if she had cash app. “i have venmo, and i think i actually do have cashapp too,” she said in response. at some point before leaving i told girl one that she was insanely gorgeous and i would literally pay just to talk to her, which felt EXTREMELY humiliating to say. i don’t remember exactly how she responded, but i do remember she was very intrigued and not uncomfortable at all, smiling at me the whole time with that amazing smile i mentioned earlier, laughing, and telling me how sweet or kind i was. at some point i said goodbye and left. girl one ends up hitting me up on insta and sending me her cashapp, to which i immediately sent her 20 USD.
insta dm (gist): girl one: “thank you so much!”
me: “you’re so welcome, i can def send you more”
girl one: “Aw okay yea lowkey that’d be fire bcuz tonight Im going out so I’d need money for a drink at the bar”
me: “how much?”
girl one: “Well one drink is like $15 so if I got 3 drinks tonight i feel like $30 would be good but I dont wanna force you”
me: “you’re not forcing meeee, 45 would cover three?”
me: “would you want maybe more than that for something else?”
girl one: “I think $50 would be good for today 😭🫶🏼 i dont wanna take too much from you”
me: “like another 50?”
girl one: “Yeah just like $50 nothing more”
i send her another 50, we have a some more conversation, and after i sent that 50, she does not say thank you in response at all. we just go on with the conversation.
STORY END
what i’ve written here does not at all fully express everything i was feeling during this experience, it is a very short version but i had to write something though, i had to. i will def make a longer version.
this experience was really something so crazy for me, something i can’t fully describe. but it has led me to this position where i think this may be something that i want to pursue long term, not just as a one off thing. every time i’ve tried to transform myself into an “alpha male” stud or whatever, it has always felt like i’m trying to be something that i’m not, and i always feel as if a magnet is pulling me back towards this type of life, and being this type of person. this feels like who i am naturally. being “alpha” means i have to put on an act, and it feels so wrong. i get a genuine sense of fulfillment from this, really. as crazy as that sounds.. i don’t know what to do. is this what i was born to be? should i actually accept and embrace that?

Hey all. So heres something I've been scratching my head over. I actually really enjoy the idea of Abbasids and some of their units and bonuses. However, I struggle to understand something about them. For one, I'm not the biggest fan of booming, but even booming civilizations tend to have options. For Abbasids however, I can't seem to find many resources or thoughts on trying to do anything with them early in the game--people seem to always default to reacting to their enemies, and letting them take the lead.
So my question is essentially, why is that?
On paper Abbasids gain many benefits very early on. 15% bonus to all gathering, that is insane. If you go for the Military wing, you'll gain 15% additional health to all infantry. It may not sound like much, but it essentially means your infantry should always win by one or two hits unless their units are superior. Alternatively, you could go Economy wing and make 25% cheaper farms or TCs to sustain a push like that. They get the Camel Archer that has few counters early on in the game. And, they get free Siege Engineering, meaning they should be able to push immediately. Oh, and to aid their momentum even more, they don't need to put villagers on their Landmark to build it, and can use those villagers to prepare a feudal push instead. Theoretically that is. I mean, I get that Dark Age ram push is a meme, but why is that even a thing if it it so thoroughly unviable?
But, despite all that, it seems that they are perpetually on the defense and always prefering to boom. I wonder to myself, is this because booming is just so much better? or is it because they are genuinely bad at pushing? and if it is the latter, how come that is the case? their bonuses seem great early on, compared to say, Rus, who need to fight the wilder gods to attain a puny 15% food gathering rate, and need to invest wood just to get an additional 20% wood, or invest wood to get a small gold trickle. Their biggest benefit seemingly is just their Early Knight. Or maybe the option to choose different Landmarks.
It really has me scratching my head. Do you know why Abbasid's struggle this much early on?

I think I'm a good person caring about needs of other people, including strangers.
But "new", young people who learnt online how to not hurt feelings are just too much. All those phrases like:
I get what you're saying and it's valid, I just want to add something but it doesn't mean you're wrong
I hear you, you're understood, you're loved
All that unnecessary I'm so sorry what you've been through, I hope you healed and processed your trauma, also that you love yourself because you deserve it when I just casually joke around with my friends about my/ our past and someone decides to stop our literal laughter to say that.
Uggggh. It seems fake. If you want to say something, say it. You don't need to repeat 10 times that it's just your opinion, I know it is. You don't need to ask me 5 times if I'm okay with what you're saying. Don't give me that crap about being loved when you don't know me in the slightest. Don't joke if you're gonna apologize for it after. Just be direct and more confident.
I feel like the Internet is divided into two parts right now. One part wants to do unholy stuff with your mother and the other one wants to talk about their intentions instead of showing them.

Hai im a sec 4 student whose aiming for DPP and i jst realised that im not gonna make it unless i do well for my n lvls however i dont know how to start. As of now my basics are really weak and my wa1 emb3 is 22, i take math, bio, chem, art, ss, history and english. Would appreciate any tips on studying or note thank you!

Im 23, I haven't spoken to my mum (65) in years, despite this I've left her number unblocked and have been reading her texts. She texted me 30 mins ago saying she had knee replacement surgery and had broken her wrist around a year ago. My parents, while having the best of intentions, were pretty cruel at times in ways i cant forget and am still processing. As a result I ended up with a range of mental health issues (bpd, cptsd, depression anxiety) on top of only recently acknowledged disorders (asd, adhd). They will probably never acknowledge or apologise or try to be better people. I think if I ever were to talk to them again it would end up with me lashing out (I'm still really angry about everything), but I still think about reconnecting with them often.
I dont want them to die and end up regretting whatever action I take.
So I was wondering if anyone has ever been in a similar place and was willing to share their experiences or give some advice.
Im not a general inhabitant of reddit so I'm sorry if this post is off or breaks the 'no therapising' rule.

Hello, today my parents and I are going to go to the city today because they booked me a show. It was a Christmas present, they hid it from me till Christmas and the show is tonight. I've been waiting a while for this and was very excited, now I still want to go but don't want to stay near my dad for a while.
So we were getting the final things ready and there was an orange plastic bag with something in it on the back of the sofa. My dad accidentally knocked it and it fell on a table next to the sofa. There was some sort of vase on the table and the bag made it fall over. My dad can get angry easily and so he was quite angry at this point and walked away my mother came in the room and said "what the hell is going on". She asked my dad and ge said "for some reason there is an orange bag on the back of the sofa". My mum picked up the vase and put it back where it was.
This point my parents exploded at eachother shouting and screaming. To me it seemed petty (but now i realise this could be for many things). One thing that I hate that my dad does is if he knocks something over he will leave it there until he decides to pick it up. So when the vase was knocked over he knew because he checked what happened, then walked away.
So I wasn't going to get involved but he told my mother to shut up and I got sick and tired of his shit. So I said, "enough both of you" my mother stopped and looked. My dad staired at me and pointed at me and said "don't talk to me like that". I normally don't talk to my dad about things because he is quite scary sometimes. But I stood my ground and said no, my mother was out of this argument at this point.
My dad left the room, I told my mother I didn't mean to upset him, she told me to apologise to my dad when he came down from upstairs. I said I don't want too, but she said it will make it better. He came down he was packing the bag I apologised that I spoke to him like that. I know apologies don't really work but I just didn't want my parents to fight on the way up to where we were going.
When I apologised he didn't say anything. Throughout the whole car journey we didn't say a word. I'm still excited for the show but I don't want to sit or be next to my dad.
Me and my dad are still not speaking. I'm fine if he doesn't want to speak to me for a while I don't want to speak to him either. I know a child isn't meant to speak back to their parents, but I just had enough of their shitty out bursts and I know that isn't an excuse.
AITA

Hey... I'm a 27 yr old female from Pakistan. I feel like I'm losing my interest in everything, it takes a lot of effort to stay connected with people so I have distanced myself from many people. I feel alone sometimes, so I wanna connect to like minded people again. Hmu if you love memes, cultures, languages, art and food 💖

So after trying on over 30+ dresses I think I have finally found the one, which is honestly a relief because I was starting to get a bit panicked. I didn't realise I was so fussy until I started this whole process.
I tried the dress on in person yesterday and loved it but I didn't place an order as I was alone at the time, so I wanted to go away and show my mum the photos etc before committing.
The dress is £2100 if buying from the shop. This is obviously without alterations, a veil, shoes, accessories etc. So, a lot of money, IMO! I've now found the dress on StillWhite brand new and unworn for half the price but it's in the USA! But my anxiety is how trustworthy is it ordering a dress from there? I'm not getting married until September so I have a bit of time, but I guess I'm looking for anyone who has successfully bought their dress from a US seller on there? Give me hope guys, please!

So my ex (23F) and I (22M) had a pretty civil break up at first, we talked it out and we decided to (unsuccessfully) remain friends.
While we were breaking up, she accused me of cheating on her with a mutual friend, I denied it and we had a long talk after that. My ex made me swear that I wasn't seeing her, and I truly wasn't; I only had eyes on my ex and it hurt that she'd assume I'd ever do something like that to her after all this time. I knew that we were growing more distant and toxic towards each other so, I decided it was best to cut it off for our own sakes. We still texted and called each other quite a lot and regularly too after that, but we kept things platonic.
Months go by. I laid low and I was working to better myself and move on, only to be hit with more and more losses (really...it felt like life was punching me in the face over and over again). And it turned out that this mutual friend of ours and me really hit it off. After a while we ended up dating.
While chatting with my ex on a random occasion, I'm not sure how she caught wind of it (since I don't post on my socials a lot), but she randomly interrogated me on whether or not I've started dating anyone. I told her yes, and who it was. She went completely ballistic and took this as a confirmation that I cheated all those months ago. She told me she's rather have me dead and proceeded to tell me that I never loved and cared about her, and that all I cared about was myself; I didn't even say one bad thing to her. She proceeded to say that if she'd ever see my gf or me, she'd kill us. That was a month ago and since then I've gotten very nice messages from most of my and her friends telling me to kill myself, and all that goodness.
So now basically I'm here for two things: Did I really cheat? And do you have any advice for me? I'm really at my last straw and I don't know what to do anymore.
If I really did cheat, it was inexcusable, and I deserve all the backlash for it.

Hello all,
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Hope you guys are doing well. And I'm here looking for an advice.
I have had this thing bugging my mind for a while, and it's getting worse. I'm finishing my 2nd in my PhD program and thinking of quitting. Mainly because I feel that I was lured and misled. My lab major focus is in the cardio field, where my interest, but I was given a funded project in something else that no one worked on it. The project was conceived in early 2000, 2 PhD students worked on it and left in 2010s. Since then, no one has touched it, and no paper has been published.
It all looked interesting when they showed me the proposals that got funded and the preliminary data. They said it's closed to publication. Later, I found that many of the preliminaries were wrongly analyzed, and I couldn't reproduce them. I brought this issue to my PI multiple times, and he refused to believe the previous data was rubbish. Also after discussing with one Postdoc that supervised me, he also found the same issue from the project he took over. I reach the point where I don't believe in the project anymore. And even if I continue, I feel like I don't care if it's gonna be published or not. I want to make right from what was wrong. I don't think I would like to defend the result that I can't believe And if I have to publish to graduate, publishers only want positive results, aren't they? I also don't plan to stay in academia and climb the ladders.
If I quit, what's the aftermath? I used to like research and academia, and the thought of leaving is a bit daunting. Tho now I know what it takes, and I don't want to turn into paper churning person to survive there. It feels like academia only belongs to the "elite" and is far away from the real problem in society. The publish or perish mantra is just sickening. I haven't had industrial experience either.

So when I (25f) was about 15 something happened between my step-grandad and myself, whilst him and my step nan were looking after me and my sister (now 16f) whilst my mum and step dad were out of the country on holiday. These are my sisters actual grandparents and dad.
I told a worker at school about what happened, they told social and it all blew up and a big meeting was held, where I told my mum what happened and why I no longer wanted to live at home. I ended up telling social I was lying, at the request of my stepdad, and moved out of the family home.
Now at the start of the month, my sister and I met up after her shift at work for some food and drinks, and she started telling me some stuff that she was finding weird and I ended up telling her what had happened to me 10 years ago. We spent the rest of the day just nattering about random stuff and my mum picked her up at 7pm. Clearly my sister has asked my mum about what I've told her and is quite upset second guessing what she thinks and knows about her grandad.
My mum got annoyed on the phone to me saying I shouldn't of told my sister what I did and it isn't fair as she has a really fragile mental state right now. She then ignored me for a solid week, when usually we speak everyday, and so I messaged her saying surely she cannot expect me to apologise for me simply telling my sister about what happened, apparently me opening up to my own family makes me selfish and has now blocked me? I'm now wondering if I was wrong to tell my sister, but I'm really upset with how my mum's now making me feel and shutting me off like it's my fault it happened to begin with, she'd rather just make me go away than ever resolve what happened to me. Am I the asshole for telling my sister about her grandad?

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