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Malicious Compliance

2016.01.04 21:29 Not_An_Ambulance Malicious Compliance

People conforming to the letter, but not the spirit, of a request.
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2008.05.10 09:18 bikeit!

Discussion of everything bicycle related. bikeit! bike bikes bicycle bicycles bicycling cycling
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2016.05.23 11:15 hos_gotta_eat_too Making A Murderer - Steven Avery and Brendan Dassey Case Discussion

Making a Murderer conversation, discussing the documentary and convictions of Steven Avery and Brendan Dassey.
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2023.06.04 20:13 dododinosaur-69 drawbridge CA exploring tips

drawbridge CA exploring tips
hello! if anyone in the bay area is interested in visiting the ghost town out in the marshes in Fremont- here are some tips!
*THIS IS TECHNICALLY NOT ALLOWED AS THIS IS PRIVATE PROPERTY!**
KNOW: - park at the McDonalds off of the Cushing and Fremont 880 exit - use the bathroom before you go! - cross the street where you see the bridge going over a water way. you have to hop the fence on the left side to begin the trail. - the fence you have to hop at the beginning is a little difficult, but not bad at all. last time i went, there was a hole in the fence to get through. - may take up to 2 hours to walk there and back, but in my experience more like 1-1.5 hours - you have to walk along the salt ponds, so it may be muddy depending on how much salt is formed rather than water. - the trail is littered with dead birds and bones, so be aware - you have to walk on live train tracks for 2 minutes, but the trains only come about every 30min, or in my experience even more rare - the tracks are above a creek kinda thing, so if you have to get off before you reach land, you have to jump - the train can be seen and heard from afar, and can be felt in the tracks. if you feel it or see it coming as you walk, you have to book it off the tracks. the train moves REALLY fast - the train is Amtrack so you can check the schedule - there are ticks, so wearing long pants and socks is a must! - you will be walking on marsh, rotting wood, and rusty metal, so wear durable shoes - I recommend bringing a first aid kit just in case, as you are 1.5 hours away from civilization - your shoes WILL get muddy and gross - there are some parts that have completely over grown, so you may need to make your own trail to a building. - some of the creeks are really deep, so be careful where you step, and take your time. - I recommend going during the summer, as it is the driest - best time of day to go is late morning into the afternoon, 11-4pm. - it can get very windy, so be aware
BRING: - sunscreen - LOTS of water - snacks - a lunch - sunglasses
WEAR: - long pants - long socks - hat - shoes that are okay to get super dirty - shoes you're comfortable walking in - sunscreen
Going out there is super fun, but remember to be cautious and kind to the land. Please don't leave trash or broken glass- but feel free to tag and leave behind little trinkets for the sheep man. During the last 3 years, a lot of it has sunk further in or collapsed, so who knows how much longer this place will last. Go at your own risk!
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2023.06.04 20:12 Mobile_Enthusiasm664 If bodyfat can’t be calculated without professional help, how do you know how much bodyfat you have? Is it when you can see abs? Can bodyfat look different on different people?

I was visiting my parents and my sister was there. My mom thinks I’m too skinny and my sister too. I showed them my belly and said that I’m 89 cm around the waist and they said no way. They took a tape measured and measured my waist. I tend to put out my stomach so they told me to not do that and they measured my waist at 87 first and 85 when measuring where you should measure(above the belly button).
My wife also got it to 87 at home. I don’t know. If it’s true the calculator I use says I’m at 18% bodyfat. If I look at the photos I’m not sure. You can check in my profile to see a photo for yourself.
How will I ever know? Does 15% bodyfat mean that you see abs? Or is there still fat there but just less? Can it look different on different people?
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2023.06.04 20:10 rbdllama [FS][MI 49512] Chaos in the Old World, Viticulture Collector's, Unpunched Escape Plan kickstarter, Descent w/expansions and more [W] Paypal G&S or local $

Selling off most of my collection, this is the first batch that I've already photographed and prepped for shipping. Willing to meet up around the GR airport area or drive for gas money, buyer pays shipping otherwise.
I have photos organized in a google drive here. Let me know if you would like additional shots of anything specific.

Boss Monster Legendary kickstarter (mostly sleeved) outer box cover has wear, otherwise [4] $65
Brew Crafters [4] $30
Descent 2nd edition with Lair of the Wyrm & Labyrinth of Ruin. (sleeved) Painted heroes, minor main box and insert wear, excellent component condition, Labyrinth of ruin is punched but unplayed. $170
Dominant Species [4] $35
Elder Sign (small sleeves included) [3] $15
Eldritch Horror [3] $30
Escape Plan - Kickstarter signed edition Would be [5] but shrink was removed, unpunched and unplayed $150
Galactic Emperor [3] $30
Innovation 1st edition [4] $15
Legends of Andor [3] One card has minor face damage, back is fine $25
Nexus Ops 2012 Box is [3], components are a [4] $40
Oh My Goods! [4] $10
Small World + Be Not Afraid [3] (components are close to 4) $25
Small World Underground [4] $25
The Resistance + 2012 promo characters + Hidden agenda & Hostile Intent kickstarter expansions Resistance is [3], expansion box is [3] components [4] $60
Tiny Epic Galaxies Deluxe kickstarter [4] $30
Tiny Epic Quest Deluxe kickstarter would be [5] except shrink was removed, unpunched and unplayed $35
Viticulture and Tuscany - Complete Collector's Edition kickstarter [4] never played $150
Warhammer 40k Chaos in the Old World with The Horned Rat Expansion Main box is worn, expansion box is [4]. Cards sleeved since opening, models are intact, components are great but the big army cards got slightly bowed before I repackaged it. $250

Other games I haven't priced, photo'ed, checked over or packaged yet:
Agricola, Android (2008), Arkham Horror (2005)+Dunwitch+Innsmouth, Axis and Allies (original gamemasters/milton bradly), Brass (original box 2008ish), Caylus(2012), City of Remnants, Condordia+Salsa, Defenders of the Realm, Dungeon & Dragons: Temple of Elemental Evil, Eight Minute Empitre Legends and lost lands, Eminent Domain, Empires of the Void II kickstarter deluxe, Exodus: Proxima Centauri, Galaxy Trucker Anniversary big box, Ghost Stories, Grimoire, Guardians of Graxia, Imperial 2030, Labyrinth: The war on terror, Lisboa signed kickstarter, Lords of Waterdeep, Merchant of Venus (2nd ed. FFG), Mombasa, Munchkin (2001), Quarriors + 4-5 expansions, Race for the Galaxy, Storm the Castle!, Summoner Wars master set with extras, Ticket to ride + Europe + Nederland, Trains(2012), Twilight Imperium 3rd + shards and shattered expansions, XenoShyft + kickstarter cards Grafting and Psychogenetics expansions.
If you're interested in any of those let me know and I'll photo/price them asap, otherwise I'll slowly work to add them to the table above. Thanks!
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2023.06.04 20:10 Evergreenwitxh How do I tell him I want to break up because of him?

I (18 M) and my partner (18 M/F) (shes gender fluid) have been together for a couple of months now. I remember loving and having this huge crush on him thinking he was amazing and I still do love him and think he’s great but at the same time there are things about him that I’ve come to realise either just don’t make sense or has crossed lines that I’ve stated I was uncomfortable with.
I’m sorry if this doesn’t make much sense but I have a hard time wrapping my head around everything that’s happened.
So basically I told him that because of things that have happened in my past- (SA and grooming) I’ve been uncomfortable having sex or seeing the naked body and this was a thing he knew before we even got together and has acknowledged because he got changed in a separate room to me when I went over to his house, but he’s sent me his old nudes that at the time I didn’t really think much of but they automatically saved to my phone due to the app I talk to him through and now I can’t bear to look at my photos because if I see even a glimpse of them it makes me feel sick and disgusting so I haven’t been able to delete them. We were on the phone a few days ago and she kept mentioning to me that she hadn’t taken any good nudes as of late and that she’ll miss being in the house by herself because she wouldn’t be able to walk around without a top on (she’s got a female body) and she kept talking about it and it made me uncomfortable because of the mental image- and then she send me a picture of her without a top her top on and I felt very uncomfortable but felt I couldn’t say anything so she didn’t get upset. But I genuinely can’t look at a naked body regardless of if it’s just the top or bottom half. She knew but decided to do this anyway.
Another issue I’ve had is that I can’t be over peoples houses overnight because again it makes me uncomfortable because of past issues I’ve had prior to them. She knows this. But has complained to me about it so I went over twice to appease her but she then assumed that I was going to go over every Friday night and I told her no, she tried to tell me that her younger brother wanted to see me because she would tell him I was coming over without me knowing she even wanted me over in the first place. I cannot stress the amount of times I’ve told her being around places overnight stress me out and make me incredibly uncomfortable, she says in her words “I know and I get that BUT I just want to be around you and cuddle with you and sleep with you” and she complains that she goes out with people who live with their partners and says that she can’t do that stuff with me because I don’t want to go over.
The last thing I have a main issue with is the fact she doesn’t seem to know or care how I don’t like how people seem to stare at her chest or try and flirt with her when I’m not there knowing we are together and she’s told me that it only ever becomes an issue if it makes her uncomfortable. I told her that, that shouldn’t be the only issue there and the fact that people know we are together and think it’s okay to flirt with her and want to do sexual things with her isn’t okay and is incredibly desperate and pathetic and incredibly disrespectful and she told me I was expecting too much.
There was one guy we were friends with I’m going to call them L, I did so much shit for L because I thought he was truly a victim of abuse and neglect (abuse from partner and neglect from parents) turns out none of that was true and he was actually the abuser and he stated that he wanted to eat out my partner and when my partner learned of this and when I brought it up she IMMEDIATELY defended him and said “I’d get it if he was single” and all this other bs that I don’t remember right now.
I want to break up because there are so so many other issues that I have and now every single thing frustrates me the only reason I haven’t broke up with her is because I’m afraid she’ll say that she’s going to self harm because when we first got together or something she mentions that if I hadn’t gotten with her when I did that she would be in a dark place with SH and other horrible things.
I’m so so sorry for the long post lol but I’ve had like one person to talk to about this and I think I need some outside perspective any advice would be greatly appreciated.
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2023.06.04 20:08 thequandaryofbeingme Where to stay in Seoul

Hello! I'm going to Korea (for the first time) in September with my family, and am wondering where in Seoul I should stay!
Some facts: 1. We're jumping off to jeju for a few days so will have Seoul at the start and end of our trip (due to flight plans) - decided to stay in Myeongdong for the first part, want to find another area to stay in (for about 3D2N) after we're back from jeju hence this post. 2. Not keen on historical places like temples or the palaces, so we're not looking to stay in areas just for history/culture appreciation - we're looking more for places that are convenient (subway/bus), have food options, and shopping (not high end products, just mid is fine; also shopping can be from clothes to skincare etc, anything as we have not visited Seoul before). 3. For budget it's not strictly defined, but so far the hotels we've checked out and are comfortable with cost below KRW 200k per night 4. Ideally the place is somewhere with food (any type, ranging from traditional Korean food to street markets, to cafes, just recommend us anything!), and preferably not too crowded. 5. In terms of ease of access, we're all able-bodied individuals and enjoy walking around and feeling calm and cosy. 6. Not keen on night life like bars and clubs. 7. Have yet to decide how we're going to the airport on our last day, but likely via train or airport buses.
Off the top of my head these are the considerations I have, please kindly share your thoughts and advice, thank you!
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2023.06.04 20:07 KayReMore She fell for me; update to dating ideas post

I had posted requesting ideas from the community for my first date.
Link to post -> https://www.reddit.com/IndianBoysOnTindecomments/13y5671/ideas_for_the_first_date/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=ioscss&utm_content=2&utm_term=1
Making an update post as some had requested and to light someone’s day and spread some positivity.
The Preparation: I followed the recommendations received in the earlier post. A huge shoutout and thanks to u/Dikkatbadhihai for your recommendations. I was wearing an ironed white shirt, no blazer haha, sleeves folded, sky blue jeans and white sneakers. I used a nice perfume I had. I carried the custom bouquet (consisting sunflower, lily, orchids, rose and tuberose), a Kit Kat and Pune’s special delicacy i.e., ‘Bakarwadi’. I also had two wine glasses with me and a bedsheet so that we could sit and watch sunset while sipping some wine if possible.
The meet: I reached early and was waiting for her at a food court in the mall. Plan was to pick her up from there and then go to ‘Seawoods’ mall to have a lunch together at restaurant recommended by a friend. She arrived, we greeted but didn’t do a side hug or something, we were figuring out whether to stay in same mall or go to the next. We decided to proceed as planned. We had trouble locating my car in parking and had to ask around a little bit. By now I was bit worried that the start wasn’t smooth and the hot weather was adding to our woes of getting comfortable with each other. Once we located my car, I swiftly moved ahead, took out the bouquet and presented it to her. She went from a surprise reaction to shying a little and eventually blushed. I got to capture all her reactions in my mobile. Then we headed to the next mall. While on the way, I played the 2000’s hit songs from Spotify as recommended. She started humming along with songs and it did set a romantic tone.
Lunch part of the date: We reached Seawoods and headed to food court. By now we became very comfortable like we were on our video calls. We were walking very close to each other and almost touching. My wrist watch was hitting her hand all along when we were walking in the mall but she didn’t allow me to remove the watch. She located a toy store on the way to food court and bought a cute small captain America bobble head for me to put on my car’s dashboard. By now we were getting touchy with each other. We zeroed on a place to eat and I paid and ordered as she is usually not much decisive. She really liked the chicken seekh kebabs. I was cutting the kebabs into small bites for her to eat and she was trying to stop me from doing it. I took some of her photos before the food arrived, with food and while eating. She was resisting in a cute way but was being a sport and enjoying it. After lunch, we decided to head towards the car. Near the lift, I saw the gaming zone. I asked her to just to go and check it out. We went in and inquired about the bowling alley but there was half an hour wait, so we cancelled. Here I felt I should hold her hand and I went for it and we did. And then onwards we were holding hands all along. Before going to the car, she bought Cinnabon for me to take home as she had told me about it and wanted me to try.
The evening – purely majestic: We headed to the jetty ride in Belapur for the sunset boat ride. The weather was hot and she was yearning for some cool breeze all through the day but it was eluding us all along. We boarded the jetty, sat down and had some water and after a while went on to check out the boat. We found a small place near the engine with two chairs. We could see everything from there so instead of sitting at the regular place with others we decided to call that place ours. We had privacy there but people were coming once in while there as part of the boat tour. Now we were holding hands and leaning our heads onto each other and enjoying the view. The boat started after a while and we started experiencing the breeze. We were now holding each other by the arm. We took some photos of the surrounding in our own mobile. Afterwards I asked her for her phone and went on to capture our photo and she obliged and we took some nice photos alongside each other. After sometime the boat slowed down and we got to see the flamingos near the shore and we tried capturing those adorable birds from distance. Then we went to the front part of the jetty to watch sunset. An extremely romantic vibe was just waiting for us. The sunset was about to happen. A nice cold breeze was flowing, the sky was clear, the red-hot sun was fully visible, a plane was flying in one corner of the sky, flamingos were there on both sides of the sea, in the distance Mumbai’s skyscraper and the under-construction trans harbour link road was visible, some birds were flying over the sea, a few fishing boats were visible too. I was holding her by the shoulder, we were looking at each other once in a while and taking in all the beauty around. For the first time in my life, my heart was satisfied. We stood there till sunset and took some really nice photos together. Once the boat turned, she took me to the back of the boat where we were from start. The night was setting in and we were holding each other close now. After a while once the people moved to the main area and we had privacy, she looked back, came very close and approached for the kiss. We kissed and it was long, intense and passionate. Just purely magical. I had never felt this kind of euphoria all my life. Everything was just surreal. We kissed again before the jetty reached the shore. We got down, walked towards the car holding hands and I jokingly gave her the credit for deciding to go for the jetty ride.
The goodbye – We just had a perfect evening and now we wanted to get some nice chai. We decided to just drive around the palm beach rode and see if we can find a chai tapri. We found a chai place after a while and asked him to make two kadak adrak chai. We sat down nearby and enjoyed the tea. We were exhausted now. We both being introverts, our social battery was now down. We enquired about a park nearby and went there and sat silently on the bench for some time. The park was getting closed, so we moved out. We found a pani puri stall and shared one plate. It was already late and I had to travel back too. So, I decided to drop her to a nearby station so she could head to her home. When we reached the station, I gave her the flower bouquet. The cab was booked and waiting. She was holding the bouquet in one hand and my hand in the other and we walked till the cab. I opened the door and helped her get in the cab and asked her to call me once she reached home. We hugged and she gave me a kiss and got into the cab and we waved each other goodbye. For next one hour, we didn’t communicate much and were just contemplating the entire day. She called me after reaching home. I was still driving back home. We laughed and talked about the day for next one hour till I reached home. Our conversation went on even after reaching home until we realised it’s too late and we should call it a day.
I feel I am really lucky to have lived this wonderful day. Just wanted to share my experience of the date as some had requested and thank people for helping me out.
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2023.06.04 20:06 Naturopathic-Doctor So angry with my mom after she guilt tripped me this morning for not sending her pics and videos of my son's 5th birthday party (that was yesterday afternoon) till last night and early this morning! I don't know how to deal with her.

My son's 5th birthday party was yesterday we live on the west coast and I'm a single mom and my parents live east coast (3 hr time difference). This was his first BIG birthday bash (with COVID and turning 5 is a big deal).We had a bounce house pizza and cake and about 25 guests with kids siblings and adults.
She initially wanted me to video chat her in on my phone for the whole party and I said no that'd be too hard plus I wanted to take photos and videos with my phone so I told her Id send lots of photos and videos.
So when we got the cake delivered I snapped a photo and sent it to her. Once the party started it was chaotic but super fun for my son. I was running around being the host for lots of things ive for oucgies, more water for kids, helping parents find the bathroom, playing games etc.
So that evening after everythingeverything settled down I send her 5-6 photos at 9pm my time which she was already asleep (12AM). Which I figured but she'd see them in the morning.
I get a text this morning from her about how upset she is that she didn't receive photos and videos during the party to feel like they were a part of it and that obviously it only takes a few seconds to send a photo or video and that they were just an afterthought!
I was fuming this morning so livid. I text her back saying well if it was that important to you why don't you send me a text saying how did the party go (after the party I was a busy cleaning up I had to drive his grandma home, stop at the drugstore, get him showered dinner and then off to bed).
She replies Oh I didn't send you a text cuz I figured you were very busy well yeah I was freaking busy and don't tell me you can't send a text saying you want pictures because think I'm busy and then be angry and upset and passive aggressive because you didn't get photos till that evening and the next day!
I did my best as a single mom running around with 25 people as a host and all she can say is she's angry at me because she feels like I didn't think about her during the party which is anything from the truth I was taking a ton of videos and photos so I could send them to her the next day. And she's doing this passive aggressive thing saying well you should have just done it because it only takes a few seconds and obviously you weren't thinking about us we were just after thought! It makes me so angry I tried my best and this is how she's going to act instead of being happy that her grandson had a really fun 5th birthday!
Anyone else deal with this from parents that live far away?
I basically ended our text this morning saying I already apologized twice and if you're still angry then you need to figure out what it is that I need to do to make things better because I can't go back in time And if you're going to be angry about this and hold a grudge for the next 6 months then we're not going to come out and visit you until things resolve (we we're supposed to be staying with them for a month in 2 weeks).
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2023.06.04 20:06 Doctor__Ew Opinion Needed: Power surge to my 2013 iMac computer, looking to possibly recover my data.

Hello. Looking for an opinion here for someone who isn’t too knowledgeable in data recovery. My 2013 iMac was plugged into a wall outlet (my first mistake, no surge protector, I know). My 4 year old took the small end of a lightning iPhone charger (which was currently plugged into the back of my computer) and jammed it into the electrical outlet, causing a power surge and sparks and such. Luckily he was ok. However now my computer is seemingly fried and won’t turn on. I assume for such an old computer, it may not be worth it to repair and maybe I should try to just recover the data. I know data recovery is expensive. It’s mostly just personal photos, videos, and documents and nothing for work. What do you think my best options are? Thanks in advance for any and all advice.
Edit: it’s a late 2013 iMac 21.5 inch, EMC No: 2638
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2023.06.04 20:05 Melodyp0nd7700900461 Missing my Dad’s memorial

Please do not repost. I don’t want my sister to see it.
Relevant background: my parents divorced when I was an infant. My Dad remarried his affair partner, had a couple kids and moved to another state all before I was five.
He died last year and my sister asked me write a eulogy. I didn’t give this to her because I have no desire to hurt her. But I feel like I need to say it.
Its been a year since my Dad died and in many ways I feel as numb as I did that day. The last year I have found that I neither miss him more or less than I did while he was alive.
I think of him often and sometimes pick up the phone to call or text. Usually its about food or music. How to cook this cut of meat or ask him the name of that mix he used for shrimp boils. Or I hear pink floyd, rush or nine inch nails. There are songs forever tied to my father that will bring back memories of my childhood.
Every year I came down my Dad made sure to spend one weekend with just me. We often went to a little oceanfront town. We would see the gator farm, ripley’s museum, and just spend time together.
One year we went to the beach and stayed in this two level motel across the street from the ocean. It was pouring rain.
Dad had this little propane cooker. I don’t know what to call it and he filled it with water, spices and shrimp and we drove across to the beach. He planted it in the sand and turned it on. He came back in the truck laughing and soaked. He turned on Rush. Tom Sawyer blasting as we watched the storm over the ocean.
One of my favorite memories.
We weren’t close after I became an adult. In many ways he was a stranger to me. When I was asked about things we remembered about Dad a few things came to mind instantly.
I remembered a bunch of things going to Sams Club, Publix, how ridiculously early he got up, how strong his coffee smelled and was. Nights in the yard as he fried, grilled and shucked. Shucking along with him and eating fresh oysters.
He had an oyster guy that we bought them straight from his trunk. There was a shrimp place where they were bought in large quantities. Poured out on a stainless steel counter covered in ice. Hooters and chicken wings.
He used to fry wings all the time. I remember once when i was probably nine where I decided i was grown and didn’t need to eat the kid wings and could do the spicy ones. They were so hot! I remember my mouth on fire and my stepmom scolding him. Not really sure what he did to them to make them that hot.
I remember boiled peanuts that took him days. Oysters Rockefeller and these other ones that were dry and I am not sure what he did to them.
I’m certain my love of food and cooking came from him.
My sense of pride and stupidity in the name of pride came from him too.
I remember when i was a teen and we were in this mall or flea market at a hot sauce stand. Dad was trying stuff but this guy kept acting like I couldn’t handle heat. Dad said I could and I tried several. This little dot of sauce on a toothpick. Until i came to one that was too much. I didn’t react and said that one was good and what was next.
Dad said that’s enough his mouth was hot and he wanted to get lunch. We walked away and were just out of sight of the guy. He told me “you can react now” and i started panting and swearing and he was laughing. We went to this bar, that had gator nuggets, i forget the name, for lunch.
I also remember now how much crown and beer he drank. How he smelled of them both often. That day was no different.
I remember how tall he seemed. How his laughter could fill a space and make you laugh too.
I saw him eight weeks out of the year. We talked weekly when we still paid for long distance. I’m not sure that he would have been more present in my life if he lived closer. Maybe.
He was never at doctors appointments even though i had a childhood illness that had me see them often. I’m not sure he fully understood that stuff.
He was never at any of my major life events. Except high school graduation. I remember that.
He was at neither of my weddings. To be fair I eloped the first and he was hospitalized the second. He walked my sister down the aisle and had the dance with her. I wish that didn’t make me jealous or sad to remember.
He barely knew my daughter and knew none of those quirks that make her amazing.
He knew his other grandchildren. Except the youngest whom he actually met for the first time a week or so before he died. She was three or four then. That makes me happy for them both. Still a little sad.
He didn’t know my second husband at all but I wish he had gotten know him. That makes me sad too because really my husband wouldn’t have known the man I remember.
But what occurred to me most as I write this was thst none of these memories are recent. I didn’t really know him.
My stepmom left him due to his addiction issues when I was in my late teens.
I didn’t really fully grasp those issues. My siblings and she dealt with them because they were there and I was not.
My sister picked him up off the floor and tried to get him sober. I didn’t.
I knew only what we talked about and back then when he was spiraling we talked a lot about things that I didn’t want to know. He was in a really dark place.
A place that landed him in hospitals and half way houses and homeless. He nearly died due to medical issues not drugs multiple times. I’m sure more times with the drugs.
There were large gaps of silence on both sides for years.
In my early twenties before it got very bad for him he decided not to talk to me because I was no longer Christian. That lasted a little over a year. After I had spent a year talking him through his divorce.
When I turned 40 he sent me a six page long hand written letter asking why we had no relationship and how he wouldn’t be around forever. He took no responsibility in it.
After that i tried to reach out monthly at least. He almost never reached out to me. I still have his texts. He never said anything about the wedding photos I sent him. Not even you look beautiful or congratulations.
When we talked it was all surface level. Long ago did we stop talking about deep things. I would tell him about work or my kid or the dumb dog.
I miss him but the him I miss has been gone for over twenty years if he ever existed at all. I’ve been mourning that man for a long time. His body has finally been put to rest for a year now.
For the last year I have struggled with my lack of grief but today i think I finally understand . My Dad had been dead to me for a long time. My father died a year ago.
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2023.06.04 20:01 45ujt445y515 What should i do what would you do

I'm (25f) sick of dealing with my family and juggling with problems and pleasing everyone My parents want to help my sister (29f) who betrayed us, but by doing that they screw me and my chance to have a house to live in and a brighter future perhaps, she left in the midst of a pandemic to another country with a boyfriend who has been dating and breaking up constantly throughout her college years, she left my parents, my disabled 16-year-old brother totally dependent on my mom, my husband, and I on our own to survive when she was the only one left with a job and she left us because of her desire to have a family with her ex who cheated on each other, she humiliated me in the bank in front of everyone who was there, while we did a procedure that suited us all so we wouldn't be homeless even though there was no food, we asked for a loan to be able to pay the rent of the house and not be On the streets with a child who has to sleep with a machine that helps him breathe, my sister took off and left me in charge of the debt that I still owe to the bank in the name of both of us but since she was not in the country, They charge me and insult me ​​and she made a new life, luckily my husband managed to get a job a couple months later when the gov let people open again, and he had to go from one city to another 5hrs from home and he visits me when he can and so do I, we made sacrifices cause we needed to survive, but hes now the one that pays everyone's expenses out of love cause we are pretty close he decided so and It is not fair for him to support my family, that is the children's job, I mean, my sister and I, I am still finishing my studies and work half time, I only have one year of internship left to graduate and work and support my family, my husband does want me to finish my studies, hes scared that if something happens to him how would i be left behind defenseless and its always been my dream to graduate and break the cycle of my family, my sister does have a university degree my parents paid some and with scholarships too, from the country we came from (we live in another country, not the one where I spent my childhood) since shes the older i couldnt go to university when i was younger, she did not want to validate her degree when she arrived here to get better opportunities (we have dual born citizenship in both countries, the one where we live now and where she went to and where we spend our childhood) and only went with boyfriends and traveling with them and got jobs as a cook half time istead of engineers jobs cause she is.
Everyone contributed at home before we lost our jobs due to the pandemic and we still haven't been able to recover, my husband was upset by my sister's betrayal (me too) and for being ungrateful because it was with our money that we paid for her plane tickets and we took care of her expenses for months without asking for anything in return and with the promise that we would help my mother and brother when they get here and have a bright life, when my parents and brother arrived instead of being of help she gave the debt to my parents and they are so stupid that they accepted pay it for her, shes done many things shes so problematic when shes home we fight so often when shes gone we barely fight maybe months without fights, i cant list all shes done it would be too long (this is already long), my husband is upset and does not want to see her nor in paintings, she is prohibited from coming back or he wont pay rent as long as shes there.
Guess who got cheated on and lost her job in the country that she returned to and now she asks her parents for help? Exactly my sister, she wants to go back and live where she once abandoned us and I don't contribute money and she wants to make use of it now that she needs it. She first told my mom she would only stay a week shes going to another closeby country to work (already unacceptable) guess who told my mom today that the friend who was waiting for her in that country bailed now she cant go and will stay in this house, sHe wants to go back and start over because she has no one where she left (obviously because she abandoned her only family) and my parents even though my husband supports us even though he shouldn't he doesn't want my sister back so much that he once told me that if she came back she would stop paying the rent and he's right, you can't argue with him, but my parents would rather risk living on the street than let my sister learn life lessons, and with that they screw me because I too would be homeless and I need to graduate I only have the internship left that I start in september and I started to learn how to put oashes to support us when i dont go to uni or study, when I have free time to be able to earn some money and help pay for my university and expenses but I will not be able to graduate and finally have a better job and live with my husband calmly and have my family, I would have to leave my family and I love them so much I have no other and they are really good but they cannot leave my sister be and they tell me that if it were me they would do the same for me but they do not see that they are fucking his other daughter directly and his handicapped son for helping another daughter, they can't support themselves, they don't have nearly enough income, not even to support for one person, 4 is already a joke, which would be counting my sister, we have lived on charity, they cant keep up with this fantasy and Besides, I have resentment and anger I don't want to live those times again I don't want to see my sister's face shes been always a problematic person in my life and out of love and family unity i tried to work our relationship and forgive and move on but im too tired go keep on this fight and for what?, my heart hurts but I am in a very important moment in my life I have eaten shit since I was a child I have lived in poverty ive been mistreated repeatedly I want to be able to have a good life even if it is for just a moment before I die.
I dont know what I want to do, just let it all burn let my parents tell my husband, ill play dumb like i didnt know and dont get involved let em tell him their great idea to let my sister back in cause shes in need knowing my husband (also i dont want her back) dont wanna take her in for all shes done or help my parents built a case and see how he reacts and see if he doesnt kick us or them out and deal with my marriage, cause I cant just please everyone nor myself i lose no matter what, it truly makes me feel like a villain and breaks my heart at the same time What should i do, im also tempted to just write to my sister asking her to desist of coming here shes just bringing trouble my whole mood is ruined
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2023.06.04 19:59 xxJayRoninxx Moto Noob...

Prospective new rider, saving up for my course and my first bike. Been doing extensive research on YouTube really like Sose the Ghost and Professional Monkey among many others. Threw a leg over a Road Glide and Street Glide and ooh....it just felt RIGHT. Didn't even get a chance to fire up the engine and hear and feel that iconic HD rumble....buuut 20-30k not yet. One day...but not yet.
That said looking HARD at a Suzuki Boulevard BOSS. Haven't seen one IRL yet but hear great things.
Anyway...
Thoroughly dig the cruiser style so what's kinda a Glide Vibe but I can get into on the used market sub 15k
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2023.06.04 19:58 coracleboat Azata: What I expected vs What I got

Playing this for the first time with very little spoilers or even advertising material, and with no familiarity with the specific Pathfinder setting (although familiarity with the overall DnD settings and concepts)
Expected: Oh, Azata is embodied by the majesty and sincerity of childhood but manifested in chaotic fey-like beings. That's neat! I'm not really playing as an angel or a demon, and this seems a good neutral ground between "aggressively good" and "haha murder death kill bloodshed hedonism!" without going into Trickster which seems to be "remember webcomics from 2005" sorta humor.
I got spoiled that you'll have a Court, I bet it's a cool faery court kinda deal. I'm doing a draconic bloodline sorcerer, could be fun to be some giant fey dragon in some magic faery garden discussing how to beat up demons with other fanciful magical creatures. You get your own dragon, too, and I hear she's top-tier NPC! Two dragons hanging out in a faery garden doing faery politics, yeah that sounds on point.
What I got: You are the 40-something assigned-mommy in a polycule of 20-something NYC/Seattle artists. Mommy, I know you're busy fighting the war and all, but I want to do a street performance art and SHE wants to make a statue installation instead. I know you're at work, but we're gonna both be DMing you on discord nonstop until you tell us which one of us gets to use the last of the art supplies. Also bring back McDonald's please.
Mommy, I want to use this room as a jacuzzi, but Brandon wants to put his bonsai trees in here. Please come home from work immediately and solve this for us :c please, or I'll be a sad kitten uwu~
I get another popup while I'm off to save someone from demons and it's just like... oh god drama in the polycule discord again...
... Aivu's pretty fun and cute! Oh my god the rest of the court is just the most trivial entitled art-commune nonsense. I've lived in NYC I've lived this life I did not want to be dragged back into this you can't do this to me Owlcat why would you do this to me.
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2023.06.04 19:58 Past-Ad-5487 Does it make sense to play JP with Modern Controls?

Does it make sense to play JP with Modern Controls? It’s my first time playing Street Fighter and I would like to play JP with Modern Controls and it seems like JP has quite a lot less to offer with Modern Controls when you compare him to other characters.
I would also appreciate tips on how to learn and understand the game better:)
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2023.06.04 19:55 spuderzz01 This moss!! How should I clean it?

This moss!! How should I clean it?
Heyyy… I purchased this live sphagnum moss in hopes to add it into my bioactive terrarium! I would love to use it, but thought I’d ask for advice on how to clean it first!
The second photo shows the information on the back of the packaging. Should I just follow the directions there and do no more?
What would you do? Thank you! ❤️
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2023.06.04 19:53 45ujt445y515 Sick n tired and broken hearted

I'm (25f) sick of dealing with my family and juggling with problems and pleasing everyone My parents want to help my sister (29f) who betrayed us, but by doing that they screw me and my chance to have a house to live in and a brighter future perhaps, she left in the midst of a pandemic to another country with a boyfriend who has been dating and breaking up constantly throughout her college years, she left my parents, my disabled 16-year-old brother totally dependent on my mom, my husband, and I on our own to survive when she was the only one left with a job and she left us because of her desire to have a family with her ex who cheated on each other, she humiliated me in the bank in front of everyone who was there, while we did a procedure that suited us all so we wouldn't be homeless even though there was no food, we asked for a loan to be able to pay the rent of the house and not be On the streets with a child who has to sleep with a machine that helps him breathe, my sister took off and left me in charge of the debt that I still owe to the bank in the name of both of us but since she was not in the country, They charge me and insult me ​​and she made a new life, luckily my husband managed to get a job a couple months later when the gov let people open again, and he had to go from one city to another 5hrs from home and he visits me when he can and so do I, we made sacrifices cause we needed to survive, but hes now the one that pays everyone's expenses out of love cause we are pretty close he decided so and It is not fair for him to support my family, that is the children's job, I mean, my sister and I, I am still finishing my studies and work half time, I only have one year of internship left to graduate and work and support my family, my husband does want me to finish my studies, hes scared that if something happens to him how would i be left behind defenseless and its always been my dream to graduate and break the cycle of my family, my sister does have a university degree my parents paid some and with scholarships too, from the country we came from (we live in another country, not the one where I spent my childhood) since shes the older i couldnt go to university when i was younger, she did not want to validate her degree when she arrived here to get better opportunities (we have dual born citizenship in both countries, the one where we live now and where she went to and where we spend our childhood) and only went with boyfriends and traveling with them and got jobs as a cook half time istead of engineers jobs cause she is.
Everyone contributed at home before we lost our jobs due to the pandemic and we still haven't been able to recover, my husband was upset by my sister's betrayal (me too) and for being ungrateful because it was with our money that we paid for her plane tickets and we took care of her expenses for months without asking for anything in return and with the promise that we would help my mother and brother when they get here and have a bright life, when my parents and brother arrived instead of being of help she gave the debt to my parents and they are so stupid that they accepted pay it for her, shes done many things shes so problematic when shes home we fight so often when shes gone we barely fight maybe months without fights, i cant list all shes done it would be too long (this is already long), my husband is upset and does not want to see her nor in paintings, she is prohibited from coming back or he wont pay rent as long as shes there.
Guess who got cheated on and lost her job in the country that she returned to and now she asks her parents for help? Exactly my sister, she wants to go back and live where she once abandoned us and I don't contribute money and she wants to make use of it now that she needs it. She first told my mom she would only stay a week shes going to another closeby country to work (already unacceptable) guess who told my mom today that the friend who was waiting for her in that country bailed now she cant go and will stay in this house, sHe wants to go back and start over because she has no one where she left (obviously because she abandoned her only family) and my parents even though my husband supports us even though he shouldn't he doesn't want my sister back so much that he once told me that if she came back she would stop paying the rent and he's right, you can't argue with him, but my parents would rather risk living on the street than let my sister learn life lessons, and with that they screw me because I too would be homeless and I need to graduate I only have the internship left that I start in september and I started to learn how to put oashes to support us when i dont go to uni or study, when I have free time to be able to earn some money and help pay for my university and expenses but I will not be able to graduate and finally have a better job and live with my husband calmly and have my family, I would have to leave my family and I love them so much I have no other and they are really good but they cannot leave my sister be and they tell me that if it were me they would do the same for me but they do not see that they are fucking his other daughter directly and his handicapped son for helping another daughter, they can't support themselves, they don't have nearly enough income, not even to support for one person, 4 is already a joke, which would be counting my sister, we have lived on charity, they cant keep up with this fantasy and Besides, I have resentment and anger I don't want to live those times again I don't want to see my sister's face shes been always a problematic person in my life and out of love and family unity i tried to work our relationship and forgive and move on but im too tired go keep on this fight and for what?, my heart hurts but I am in a very important moment in my life I have eaten shit since I was a child I have lived in poverty ive been mistreated repeatedly I want to be able to have a good life even if it is for just a moment before I die.
I dont know what I want to do, just let it all burn let my parents tell my husband, ill play dumb like i didnt know and dont get involved let em tell him their great idea to let my sister back in cause shes in need knowing my husband (also i dont want her back) dont wanna take her in for all shes done or help my parents built a case and see how he reacts and see if he doesnt kick us or them out and deal with my marriage, cause I cant just please everyone nor myself i lose no matter what, it truly makes me feel like a villain and breaks my heart at the same time
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2023.06.04 19:53 BuccosBot The Pirates defeated the Cardinals by a score of 2-1 - Sun, Jun 04 @ 11:35 AM EDT

Cardinals @ Pirates - Sun, Jun 04

Game Status: Final - Score: 2-1 Pirates

Links & Info

Cardinals Batters AB R H RBI BB K LOB AVG OBP SLG
1 Edman - CF 3 0 2 0 1 0 0 .259 .319 .443
2 Goldschmidt - 1B 4 0 0 0 0 1 3 .296 .396 .511
3 Gorman - 2B 4 0 0 0 0 3 2 .270 .357 .551
4 Arenado - 3B 3 0 0 0 0 0 1 .263 .314 .438
5 Yepez - RF 2 0 0 0 1 1 2 .214 .283 .381
a-Donovan - LF 1 0 0 0 0 0 0 .246 .340 .374
6 DeJong - SS 3 0 0 0 1 0 1 .239 .326 .487
7 Baker - DH 4 0 2 0 0 1 1 .500 .500 .500
1-Mercado - PR 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 .333 .357 .444
8 Walker - RF 4 0 0 0 0 0 4 .259 .308 .365
9 Knizner - C 4 1 1 1 0 2 4 .232 .259 .476
Totals 32 1 5 1 3 8 18
Cardinals
a-Grounded out for Yepez in the 8th. 1-Ran for Baker in the 9th.
BATTING: 2B: Edman (12, Hill). HR: Knizner (5, 7th inning off Hill, 0 on, 2 out). TB: Baker 2; Edman 3; Knizner 4. RBI: Knizner (12). 2-out RBI: Knizner. Runners left in scoring position, 2 out: Arenado; Yepez; Knizner. Team RISP: 0-for-6. Team LOB: 8.
Pirates Batters AB R H RBI BB K LOB AVG OBP SLG
1 Marcano - SS 4 0 0 0 0 1 2 .267 .325 .457
2 Reynolds, B - DH 4 1 2 0 0 0 1 .282 .336 .488
3 Suwinski - LF 4 1 1 0 0 1 2 .236 .351 .490
4 Santana - 1B 3 0 0 0 1 0 2 .234 .327 .362
5 Hayes - 3B 4 0 3 0 0 1 1 .242 .290 .395
6 Bae - CF 4 0 2 2 0 0 1 .274 .325 .363
7 Castro, R - 2B 4 0 0 0 0 1 5 .263 .363 .416
8 Palacios, J - RF 2 0 0 0 0 0 0 .267 .353 .467
a-Joe - RF 2 0 0 0 0 1 0 .252 .341 .479
9 Hedges - C 3 0 2 0 0 0 0 .179 .240 .221
Totals 34 2 10 2 1 5 14
Pirates
a-Flied out for Palacios, J in the 6th.
BATTING: 2B: Hedges (4, Mikolas). TB: Bae 2; Hayes 3; Hedges 3; Reynolds, B 2; Suwinski. RBI: Bae 2 (14). 2-out RBI: Bae 2. Runners left in scoring position, 2 out: Suwinski; Castro, R 5; Reynolds, B. Team RISP: 2-for-9. Team LOB: 9.
Cardinals Pitchers IP H R ER BB K HR P-S ERA
Mikolas (L, 4-2) 5.0 10 2 2 0 2 0 91-61 3.74
Cabrera, G 1.2 0 0 0 0 0 0 16-9 4.37
Hicks, J 1.1 0 0 0 1 3 0 20-13 4.07
Totals 8.0 10 2 2 1 5 0
Pirates Pitchers IP H R ER BB K HR P-S ERA
Hill (W, 5-5) 6.2 4 1 1 3 6 1 96-62 4.41
Moreta (H, 3) 0.1 0 0 0 0 1 0 5-3 1.67
Ramirez, Y (H, 3) 1.0 0 0 0 0 0 0 12-7 1.29
Bednar (S, 13) 1.0 1 0 0 0 1 0 11-9 1.13
Totals 9.0 5 1 1 3 8 1
Game Info
HBP: Arenado (by Hill).
Pitches-strikes: Mikolas 91-61; Cabrera, G 16-9; Hicks, J 20-13; Hill 96-62; Moreta 5-3; Ramirez, Y 12-7; Bednar 11-9.
Groundouts-flyouts: Mikolas 5-2; Cabrera, G 1-4; Hicks, J 1-0; Hill 5-3; Moreta 0-0; Ramirez, Y 2-1; Bednar 0-2.
Batters faced: Mikolas 25; Cabrera, G 5; Hicks, J 5; Hill 28; Moreta 1; Ramirez, Y 3; Bednar 4.
Inherited runners-scored: Moreta 1-0.
Umpires: HP: Jacob Metz. 1B: Tripp Gibson. 2B: Mark Carlson. 3B: Brennan Miller.
Weather: 73 degrees, Partly Cloudy.
Wind: 9 mph, In From CF.
First pitch: 11:37 AM.
T: 2:14.
Att: 22,947.
Venue: PNC Park.
June 4, 2023
Inning Scoring Play Score
Bottom 1 Ji Hwan Bae singles on a line drive to center fielder Tommy Edman. Bryan Reynolds scores. Jack Suwinski scores. Ke'Bryan Hayes to 3rd. 2-0 PIT
Top 7 Andrew Knizner homers (5) on a fly ball to left field. 2-1 PIT
Team Highlight
PIT Bullpen availability for Pittsburgh, June 4 vs Cardinals (00:00:07)
STL Bullpen availability for St. Louis, June 4 vs Pirates (00:00:07)
PIT Fielding alignment for Pittsburgh, June 4 vs Cardinals (00:00:11)
STL Fielding alignment for St. Louis, June 4 vs Pirates (00:00:11)
PIT Starting lineups for Cardinals at Pirates - June 4, 2023 (00:00:09)
STL An animated look at Andrew Knizner's home run (00:00:09)
PIT Ji Hwan Bae's two-run knock (00:00:21)
STL Luken Baker's first career hit (00:00:29)
STL Andrew Knizner's solo homer (5) (00:00:28)
STL Mikolas K's Marcano in the 1st (00:00:07)
PIT Rich Hill's six strikeouts (00:01:03)
PIT Ke'Bryan Hayes' three-hit game (00:00:44)
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 R H E LOB
Cardinals 0 0 0 0 0 0 1 0 0 1 5 0 8
Pirates 2 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 2 10 0 9

Decisions

Division Scoreboard

MIL 3 @ CIN 0 - Middle 3
CHC @ SD 05:30 PM EDT
Next Pirates Game: Mon, Jun 05, 07:05 PM EDT vs. Athletics (1 day)
Last Updated: 06/04/2023 02:13:13 PM EDT
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2023.06.04 19:52 SirRichardWhimsy Para3 Maxamet SECOND

Hi all,
Please be 21 to purchase and know your local knife laws. Price includes shipping (US only, please). I reserve the right to sell to whomever I choose, but generally the first "yolo" here followed by a chat gets the knife. PayPal F&F please, no comments. By buying, you are certifying that this is legal for you to own. No trades.
Timestamp / Photos: https://imgur.com/a/7fGCc7r
Para 3 FACTORY SECOND, Maxamet: I picked this up with a Maxamet PM2. I had originally intended to keep this and use the crap out of it, but then I went and bought a few other knives... so I'm gonna pass this one along to make up some funds. I'm the second owner (original purchased directly from Spyderco), no use/carry/sharpening. Edge is factory. NO box. Screaming sharp. Nice action. It is a bit off-center, and I'm guessing this is a second due to blade finish. It doesn't have the more heavily bead-blasted finish that I've seen on most Maxamet PM2/Para3's.... it's got a blast on it, but the grind lines still show through a bit. I think that plus the centering is what puts this into the second category (I guess?), but everything else seems good. This would be a killer user for someone who isn't picky about the blade finish or centering, get it cheap for $110. Thanks for looking! SOLD
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2023.06.04 19:50 Alfaromero97 My ex Girlfriend broke up with me twice. I keep going in and out in my heart between the emotional damage she did to me with and looking at the good times in the relationship. What i want to really know is "What does it mean when my ex girlfriend says that she's going to block to me for a while?"

to keep things brief my ex girlfriend was really toxic and emotionally abusive to me even though I still want to be with her and am and am only seeing things I feel with rose colored glasses. Through out the relationship i was not able to voice myself with the actions she did to me that were wrong and I felt suppressed often. More recently she broke up with me a second time, I had given her some space after the break up with no contact, then decided to call her because I not only missed her, it also felt like she was bread crumbing me with following me on instagram and liking my photos but wanted to talk to her about the emotional damage she caused me now reflecting on hoping she would be empathetic and listen to me. Little did i know she just didn't want to hear me and was so cold with me asking "why am i talking about this?" It was like talking to a brick wall which was so hard especially just wanting to be vulnerable with the person I once loved and cared about so deeply 😭 I felt so heartbroken and so angry how she couldn't ever empathize with me. I decided to send her a message to get my point across even though I know it was a waste of my time reflecting on it now. "If you have tried I would have truly seen it. If you would have been there for me at my lowest and when I needed you I would have seen it. If you would have truly loved me you wouldn’t hold back your love for me saying it and in actions the many times you did. You would have not thrown me out of your house every single time I wanted to fix something with you. You would truly engaged in the things I shown you and were important to me. Lastly you would have given me the security needed. No one who cares about someone should be walking on egg shells all the time if all they wanted was love and security. I know I want farther than you and loved you deeply because I cared deeply and had always been there for you. You manipulated my heart and you tore it. You got what you wanted for now. One day you’ll realize how much I did for you and sacrificed. You hurt me, my family, and my friends and I don’t ever want to see you again in my life especially how you took advantage of me for your own gain." days later I had felt so bad sending that to her even though she had ended up blocking me on everything. So gave her space for a while, a few days later I went out of my way to apologize deeply to her by send her this message on my brothers phone.

"I want to say I'm deeply sorry, and I feel terrible to you the person I love and called my special person for these two good years. I reacted very immaturely the other day when we talked. I think I was so emotionally clouded that I couldn't think straight. I know you probably don't want to forgive me or talk to me again. I understand that. In truth I never want to burn the bridge I had with you. Even though I know we can't be lovers anymore. You know me where sometimes I over think things and do dumb things based in my emotions, something I know I need to work on. My deepest regret though is losing you who I loved so deeply. I want to love you as a friend and person that I cherished with all those amazing memories despite our challenges that made us split. I hope when you see this message you can unblock me and text or call me back. I just would like to have our numbers open so we can check on each other from time to time. I love you and care for so deeply, appreciate you, you were my first girlfriend who supported me in tough times and were there, I know we had challenging times and I accept we have to move away from each other romantically. I just would like to stay connected with you in some way."

she later unblocks me saying: "Im really upset with what you said to me. I understand you have big emotions, but it doesn’t mean I will let myself be talked that way. Only for you to reflect and say sorry days later (Even though i genuinely went out of my way to say sorry) it’s just not fair. I’m going to keep you blocked for awhile because that’s the only way I can keep my boundary. I don’t know what the future holds, but I wish you nothing but the best."
then she blocked me again and didn't allow me to respond to her how deeply sorry i was and wanted to talk it out with her how deeply sorry I was.
Something also to my surprise is that she still has pics of us two together on her instagram.
"what could she mean that i'm going to block you for a while now" even when I went out of my way to apologize for my actions. is she using it as a form of manipulation? Do you think with time she will try coming back? will she regret her actions and realize that i generally treated her well? i was literally always there for her never gave up on her and loved her so hard and unconditionally. If there was a challenge I would keep working at it and not give up. I feel so blinded 😭 I don't even know whats real anymore she was my everything 😭

i just wonder even though she didn't really see my value in the relationship and broke up with me twice if she will ever realize truly my value and how much she meant to me.

I could really use your feedback, thank you 😭❤️
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2023.06.04 19:50 cody11-11 Can anyone take a look at the specs for this gaming PC?

Hi, I'm interested in building a PC that gives me a more competitive edge. I'm shooting for 1080p, 144 fps+ monitor as well. I don't want 1440p or 4k but maybe later down the line... I mainly want to get competitive in League of Legends, Fortnite and Overwatch. I want high performance and no stutter. I was chatting with some people on the discord server and they helped build me a PC. Someone mentioned a 5000D casing. I looked at photos online and it seems more appealing for the extra cash. Any thoughts? I expecting a $2,000 build. Any input is accepted, this is my first time building. PLEASE!
This is the current build
PCPartPicker Part List: https://pcpartpicker.com/list/6ssRZw
CPU: Intel Core i5-13600K 3.5 GHz 14-Core Processor ($299.99 @ Newegg)
CPU Cooler: Deepcool AG620 BK ARGB 67.88 CFM CPU Cooler ($49.99 @ Newegg)
Motherboard: Gigabyte Z690 UD AX DDR4 ATX LGA1700 Motherboard ($169.99 @ Newegg)
Memory: Silicon Power GAMING 32 GB (2 x 16 GB) DDR4-3200 CL16 Memory ($49.97 @ Amazon)
Storage: TEAMGROUP MP34 2 TB M.2-2280 PCIe 3.0 X4 NVME Solid State Drive ($79.98 @ Amazon)
Storage: TEAMGROUP MP34 2 TB M.2-2280 PCIe 3.0 X4 NVME Solid State Drive ($79.98 @ Amazon)
Video Card: XFX Speedster MERC 319 CORE Radeon RX 6800 XT 16 GB Video Card ($519.99 @ Amazon)
Case: Corsair 4000D Airflow ATX Mid Tower Case ($94.99 @ B&H)
Power Supply: Enermax REVOLUTION D.F. 2 850 W 80+ Gold Certified Fully Modular ATX Power Supply ($109.99 @ Amazon)
Total: $1454.87
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2023.06.04 19:50 mystic-y WSIB Diablo 4 or Street Fighter 6 ?

Hello guys, i want to buy one of these two games.
Street fighter 6 : i played the beta a little bit, i've never invested myself in a fighting game because the mechanics seems overwhelming at first. I've only played the story of street fighter on 3ds and played a bit of Brawhallah and i didn't like smash bros.
Diablo 4 : i played a lot of diablo 3 and i really like these type of games but i'm worried. From what i've seen, there is no pay to win, only cosmetics, but will it lasts ? Can i be sure to invest my time in this game and be sure that blizzard don't destroy the game ? I'm also wondering if you have any informations in the daily quests, is it optional ? The only thing that makes me doubt between theses two games is the monetisation and the daily quests of Diablo.
If you could help me make a choice, that would be great !
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2023.06.04 19:49 EffectSubstantial909 Lost Terran 5


After Franz boarded the aircraft and was sent to a facility to be interrogated the women in a fancy coat known as Senator Jil’adamas asked her daughter who’s the District Commander of this region.
“(What are the losses?)”
District Commander Zara replied nervously
“(The medics just checked all of them are unconscious with some suffering from broken bones and internal burns from the electrical weapon, a few days of medical bath would fix any damage done)”
“(Good, if one of them died it would be a stain on my reputation)”
‘She and her goddess damned reputation’ District Commander Zara thought dissatisfied that her mother only cares about reputation
“(Say Zara)”
“(Yes mother?)”
“(You still haven’t found a mate yet have you?)”
‘Oh goddess no!’ Zara screamed internally as the last thing she wants is to become a political bargaining chip.
“(Mother I’ve been looking up male candidates but I just haven’t been able to find the right one yet)”
“(Really now?)” The former said as she reviews the information they have so far on the individual they have just captured.
In particular she’s eyeing the reports saying that he’s speaking an unknown language.
There’s also strong evidence that he might be from a new undiscovered species.
—————————————— Later
After landing Franz was lead to a room, right now he’s assisting Cre’taxsian scientists in making a translation software to communicate.
Much of what he does is being shown pictures/videos and saying what he thinks they mean.
Of course that’s easier said than done as some times he would be shown stuff that he simply has no idea about.
Like no matter how many photos of these thingy mabob there won’t be an English equivalent.
He’s being shown a crystal but it’s not a crystal the scientist we’re adamant about it.
‘Dude what the hell is that even?’ Franz was baffled as he’s being shown various devices with a “not crystal” below it.
With still pictures failing to get through to him, they then showed him a video of how’s these “not crystals” are made.
While it’s interesting and the production process seems complicated but no matter if it’s cut or whatever there’s simply no fucking English equivalent!
It isn’t until they showed him a video of these crystals being inserted into a device and the device started moving that it finally clicked for Franz.
‘Ohhhhh these must be computer chips or their equivalent of it’
Like obviously aliens wouldn’t be using the same technologies as humans on earth.
In fact they seems to be using photons computers instead of the electrical computers that humans are using.
Like closet thing he knows to their technology is Fiber Optic cables.
With a bit of thinking he finally spoke to the scientist showing him videos of what these things do
“crystal chip”
……. …. ..
The scientist’s eye twitches
Then she showed a different type of “crystal chip” she emphasized that this chip has a different function than the last one but to Franz it’s pretty much just a “crystal chip” with a different color.
‘Maybe like the difference between graphics card and CPU?’ He wondered before just saying “blue crystal chip”
To which a vine visibly bulges on her forehead and Franz can hear laughing noises from outside the interrogation room, undoubtedly there is probably an army of staff outside working alongside her helping and giving suggestions.
She coughs before moving onto a different field as he just demonstrated that computers are not his specialty, she whispers into the coms before deciding to go to a more familiar field.
She then pulls up another picture
(It’s not strange for aliens to use a different format of the periodic table, look up alternative periodic table formats)
‘What’s this supposed to be?’ Franz wondered
Then the Scientist pointed to the center and said
“(Hydrogen)”
She then pulls up a 3D model of a ball and circling that ball is a smaller ball.
She pulls up another picture of a giant explosion in the middle of space. Then she shows a vast gas clouds as the aftermath begins of the giant explosion.
She then shows the vast gas clouds in space slowly coalescing into a stagas giant.
She rewinds the video points to the gas clouds and said “(hydrogen)”
At this point Franz naturally knows what’s she’s referring to and said “hydrogen”
With that the rest of the elements went smoothly as Franz liked chemistry and physics when he was in high school.
Although Franz is bewildered by the fact that they didn’t go pass Rubidium atomic number 37. Even their periodic table doesn’t show anything pass Rubdium.
After the basics vocabulary’s of objects they then move into actions, this part was especially torturous.
Imagine playing charades but you have no idea if you’ve guessed right on the word they’re trying to convey.
After a few growling days charades, they’ve finally have something workable.
Confident that they now have gathered enough word samples the scientific team decided to try out their new software.
“What you name?”
‘They speak like the Chinese in China town back home’ Franz thought before responding
“Franz”
With his response Franz can hear cheering from outside the room, Franz didn’t give his full name as it’ll needlessly complicate things.
Like they can barely speak but you’re ganna throw your full name at them?
“What you race?”
“Human”
“What you gender?”
“Male”
“What you from?”
At that question Franz frowns as the software obviously still needs a lot of work but it’s still intelligible enough to be understood as “where are you from?”
“Earth”
“What Earth from?”
‘You mean where is Earth right?’ Franz wondered
“Not Know” he replied using the same shitty English as they do, not that he recalls giving them the vocabulary for “don’t”
At his reply the scientist frowns not quite believing that he doesn’t know where his home world is.
Even so she moves on to the next question which is the most important one
“What you explode?”
“What?” Franz replied not quite understanding the question
The scientists then showed a picture of a crater where Franz first appeared on this world.
“What you explode?” She asked again as she plays a video of an explosion in town center before a figure that looks like him crawling out of the crater.
‘Why did you detonate an explosive? or is it what explosive did you use?’ Well on both cases he’s being accused of being a terrorist
Well that seems like undeniable proof that he’s responsible for the explosion but in actuality he isn’t! He was just disarming a bomb according to a bomb expert and before he knows it he’s crawling out of a crater and into this devil infested world!
But what’s he ganna say? I didn’t do while a video of him crawling out of ground zero is being played?!
No! He has to be creative with this one!
“I not explode”
The scientist’s eye brow raised with his claim, Franz then took out his smartphone and brought up the cam footage of him trying to disarm an explosive attached to a gram of anti-matter there was a bright flash of light and next thing you know he’s in the middle of a crater.
He showed it to the scientist, that peaked the scientist’s interest
“Again” she demands while pointing to his iphone
Franz the replayed the video and she then points towards the large device the bomb was strapped to.
“What that device?”
‘God if I know’ Franz thought before muttering “teleportation device”
The scientists frowns as the word “teleportation” is not within the list of vocabulary they got so far.
“Travel device” seeing that she doesn’t get it Franz uses another term that’s a close approximation of what he wants to say that they know.
Franz is making shit up right now as he doesn’t actually know what that device is, but it’s better then saying “I don’t know how I got here and that explosion is not my fault”
The scientists frowns making a note to ask about it again after they have a better translation on his language.
She points to the jar that’s magnetically confining a gram of pure anti-matter.
“Anti-matter”
She frowns again
“Not matter” Franz tried to switch out the word “anti” with “not” but unfortunately they also didn’t have the word for “matter” within their narrow lists of translated words.
“Not atoms”
They know the word for “Not” and “atoms” but can they figure out its anti-matter?
…..
After a bit of thinking there was still a frown so the answer to is a big NO.
“Periodic Table” Franz then gestures to the wall
The scientists did as he said and shows their version of periodic table on the wall.
Franz then gestures to all of elements within it and said “Matter”
….
The scientist still doesn’t seem to get it
Franz then points to the hydrogen and said “hydrogen wall”
The scientists projects a 3D model of a hydrogen.
Then he gestures for the electrons to spin in reverse and said “anti-Hydrogen”
Then he makes a fist saying “hydrogen” and another fist saying “anti-hydrogen”
He brought both fist together and said “explosion”
Franz brings up the image of the jar of anti-matter and said “anti-hydrogen”
It is only then that it finally clicked to the scientist of what she has heard, she quickly went out to talk with her team who’s were listening in to the conversation.
“(Oh my goddess! Did he just say what I think he’s trying to say!)”
“(His race must be insane to be playing with anti-matter!)”
“(Just my kind of crazy)” one of the single scientist who desperately looking for a mate said
“(Oh you dirty dirty bitch)” her friend quips
“(These degenerates !)” the head scientist yells out as normally her team is quite professional but as soon as a male is brought in they devolve into a bunch of horny degenerates!
Franz didn’t know what they’re saying but it’s gotten very rowdy outside.
—————————————————— After a few more days of charades and adding more words to the database the science team again feels that they should redo the interrogation.
“We have improved the translation and hope that you can answer us again” the scientists said
‘It sure is a lot better then the last time’ Franz thought before replying
“Sure what do you want to know?”
“First thing first who are you?”
“I’m Franz full name is Francis Alexander Zimmerman, I’m a Security Specialist”
She raised her eye brow at the information she’s given as she notes down something in her crystal data pad.
“So what does a Security Specialist do?
“I Specialized in Security be it escorting clients, protecting important facilities to disarming dangerous explosives”
The part about disarming explosives is pure BS he’s just overselling himself to get a bit of negotiating leverage.
“(Baby I want to hire you to guard our nest)”
Franz could hear a bit of commotion outside and someone whistling
Hearing what was said a vain bulge as the head scientist scolded them over the coms.
She scolded them in their weird alien language so Franz has no idea what was being said but judging by her tone it’s probably full of expletives.
After the scolding the head turns back to Franz and smiles before continuing where they left off as if what had transpired didn’t happen
“So tell me which race are you?”
“We call ourselves Human or in our academic terms we refer to ourselves as Homo Sapients or Wise People”
“I see interesting, this is our first time coming across your species so can you tell us where we can contact your people so that we can start diplomatic relations?”
“I’m afraid I can’t help you with that as I’ve got no clue as to where I’m currently at”
At Franz’s reply the scientists shows a galactic map to him.
“Unfortunately I’m not educated in Astronomy the study of stars so I can’t help you in that matter”
The Cre’taxsian scientist doesn’t quite believe in what he says but she lets it pass before asking something that has her own personal interest in it.
“So how did you arrive here?”
“I arrived here when I was disarming an explosive device attached to one of the experimental devices in the Lab I was responsible for”
“Can you tell me more about the experimental device?”
“I’m under oath of non-disclosure, I can only tell you is that it was teleportation research and it involved the use of anti-matter”
The scientist clicks her tongue as she really wants to know more about it, unfortunately for her it was all BullShit as Franz himself has no ideas what they were researching, he just made it to explain how he got here.
“Your people must be pretty insane to be using that for experiments”
“It is not my place to question”
“Moving on some of my staff has taken interest in some of your devices can you hand them over to be examine?”
“I’ll humbly decline” while Earth’s technology isn’t as advanced as the technology here but it’s one of the few assets he has that is of some research value.
Like he’s not ganna just give away one of the few valuable things he owns for free, what is he? Insane!?
The scientist clicks her tongue some more she then moves onto the next question
“Can you tell me more about your people?”
“This is my species first time coming into contact with your species so I would like to know more about your species before sharing my own”
‘Information is always important’ Franz thought as he stranded in an alien land with no way home, he gotta make the most of the resources he has.
He doesn’t want to give away valuable information that he would learn that he could have traded it for something valuable.
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2023.06.04 19:47 ThrowRAsighohwhy My(35F) BFs(37M) drug usage is causing him to spiral

Several months ago my bf of 5 years found a good job that required travel every week. the pay was great and the traveling was a plus. In the last few months the pay rate at the job was changed and he took a significant pay cut. He's complained a lot about that, but the issue I'm here about is his drug usage.
We live in a very rural area and he's learned how to go into these cities and find drugs. A couple weeks ago he flew to Sacramento. His first evening there he OD'ed on the street. He said he woke up to the fire department doing CPR on him, but the "doctor said his heart didn't stop" so he was fine he said. He woke up the next morning and got more drugs. He apparently was robbed by a couple people while trying to score. He's told other friends that, not me.
Just this week he had a connect flight in Denver. He decided to get ahold of a connect there and made a plan to meet him, get high, and make it back to the flight in time. He did not succeed and missed the flight to the next job. If it had worked out for him I'd never known this happened, but he called me that night panicking saying he was broke and couldn't afford a hotel. I said I couldn't help and hung up. He missed another flight because he fell asleep on the light rail on the way to the rescheduled flight. So he basically just hung out in Denver for a couple days and got high. The first night he called he was so "sorry", it was stupid, he regretted it. Fast forward to last night. He'd been demanding thru text that I go to the post office and send him suboxone because he had to go straight to the next job and couldn't come home this weekend like usual as the 2 day detour in Denver put him behind schedule obviously. I ignored his messages and did not do as he asked. Late last night I said when he was ready I'd like to have an actual conversation about things. He was only interested in whether I had mailed him his drugs and when I said I had not he went insane. I was a cunt, a disingenuous bitch, a fat fucking bitch, an annoying dumb bitch. He said he wouldn't even bother wishing death on me, but to please go kill myself because he wants to think of me as dead. I've gained some weight recently because this shit is stressful you know and he knows it bothers me so he sent the word fat about 50 times then blocked me on everything. I apparently am the problem. Yeah, it hurts, but I know it's for the best to get away from him.
But the thing is, I still don't want him to die regardless of the terrible shit he said. And I know he can't handle his stuff, I've seen it first hand and had to babysit him. He absolutely will die if he continues this. I've tried to talk to his mom, I've tried to talk to one of his friends that works at the same place. No one wants to do anything and they intend to continue enabling him. And I am a "crazy, vindictive bitch" for reaching out to anyone to try to do something. I have his boss' number. I have never spoken to him, but I think if he was made aware that his employee is strung out on drugs, missing flights to get high, and overdosing out on jobs he would put a stop to it rather quickly. I don't want him to lose his job, but I want him to get help. I'm incredibly conflicted on whether to involve myself or let him implode on his own. I know that if I did nothing and something happened to him I would absolutely live with regrets of not trying to do more. How should I handle things?
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